A Discombobulated Symphony of Thoughts

I wouldn't call myself an emo person but lately, it's seemed like that. Pre-pharmacy is kicking my butt and it just won't stop. As soon as I can catch my breath, there's another wave of exams, lab reports, and projects right in my face again. I finally thought I had the hang of everything and then I got sick. I'm behind in pretty much all of my classes and I have an exam tomorrow night. Mental and physical exhaustion do not make a good combination.

I studied most of the day for my physics exam but that was the extend of my studying. Instead of studying and working hard trying to catch up in my other classes, I decided to sit in my room in front of my computer and just take it all in. After sitting and thinking, I found that I wanted to quit this pre-pharmacy stuff, change my major, and get out of Purdue as soon as possible. Pretty extreme, isn't it? That was my Sunday night...until about thirty minutes ago.

A friend of mine (of whom probably got sick of hearing me babble and sounding all "woe is me") shared a story with me. She shared a story about how a girl from our church and a handful of other individuals were in a car crash last night. She proceeded to make the story very dramatic, detailing the events. In my head, I was thinking "Man, I'm already in a bad mood, why are you telling me this?" And then she got to the punch like: A car accident in which the car rolled over 5 times and landed in a swamp...and everyone was okay. A sense of relief swept over my body. Praise God for his protection in this situation. Our momentary troubles are so small relative to what other people are going through. The sum of all of our troubles are nothing when compared to the glory of our God. We have an AWESOME God. When we lose sight of this, we often find ourselves stumbling, gasping for life.

In the short time of one day, I've managed to change my focus from God to my own problems. Instead of living for God's kingdom and what's eternal, I fixed my eyes upon what is temporary, tangible, and right in my face at the moment. I lost sight of all that God is and everything that He desires for me. I sat here looking at my problems and letting them completely overcome my desire to do anything. But the Lord used everything, my situation, my conversation with my friend, and the strange timing of a the lyrics in a few songs to really speak to my heart. What seemed to be a lost night became such a blessing.

Praise the Lord for He is good!