I'm back..

After a long hiatus, I am finally back on the blog. With that said, I do it with a bit of hesitation.

I realized over winter break that I am too legalistic when it comes to the blog. If I don't do it, I feel like an incompetent Christian, subjective to many judgmental eyes. When I do it, I feel like a pharisee, pointing the finger at those who don't. I remember last semester, I would look at the sheet at the end of the week and think to myself "Man, I'm so awesome for doing all my blogs this week. Other people haven't done theirs this week so I guess that means..." For this, I am truly sorry. To the other leaders: I am sorry for judging you guys and thinking more highly of myself than I ought.
To God: I'm sorry for making this blog about things that it shouldn't be about. I'm sorry for making my time with you into a public display, used to justify myself as 'superior' to others.

Legalism in the church gets us nowhere. If anything, it creates false tiers of members. It creates an aura of self-righteousness and justification before God. This is something that I need to be wary of as I blog this semester. We are all sinners caught in the unfair mercy and grace of our loving Creator.

I see the good in doing the blogs however. It is a good form of accountability and it somehow gets me to dig deep into God's word each and everyday. As humbled as I am by God's revelations this past break, I need to continue to remain humble before God. I am nothing but my God is capable of anything. My heart needs to come before Him each day and realize that this is for His glory and His glory alone. It's by grace that I am here and by grace that I will continue to live.