My mind feels like its about to explode. Everything, even the simplest of concepts, is way over my head right now. Nothing is sticking. I have a final in a hour and one tomorrow at 10:20 AM. I feel like my back is up against the wall. I know that the Lord will give me strength to get through this but physically, it body is telling my mind that it may be impossible.

I'm beginning to think that my focus is off. I'm sitting here, desperately studying for all of the wrong reasons. I'm sitting here, worrying about my grade point average, pharmacy school, and implications of getting a C in a class and such has become my motive for studying. Out went the desire the glorify God through it and in became this idol: pharmacy school.

I'm not saying that I'm about to throw in the towel but I'm raising a white flag in this very moment. It's one of surrender, not to my exams, but to God. I'm living for myself right now. Looking down this road, I already see that it is one of brokenness and emptiness.

Philippians 3:12-14
Not that I have already obtained all this, or have already been made perfect, but I press on to take hold of that for which Christ Jesus took hold of me. Brothers, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus.

Pressing forward for my Savior's glory through His provision.