Eternal Treasure

I am continually humbled with each successive exam. Second round of exams came back and all of the scores were lower than my first round by a letter grade. Last year, I would have freaked out about this. I would have gone into panic mode, locked myself in the library, and never left. I would have focused on my needs, my desires, me, me, me. I'm not saying that I'm satisfied with how I did but I realize that there is something greater in store. I desire to do well but I have an even greater desire: to walk with my Lord and Savior.

I've begun to realize what it means to "walk humbly" this school year. Last year, I thought I was such a hot shot getting the grades that I got. I thought very highly of myself, that I could do anything that I wanted. Worst of all, I thought this was all because of me and my hard work and my intelligence. I didn't praise God and thank Him for the talents that He blessed me with. This year, most of that is gone. I'm fighting to keep up. I'm trying to keep from drowning in the hustle and bustle of this school year. None of my grades are coming easy. Half of them are not what I expected coming into this school year. But through it all, God has granted me peace. I know that these trials are only momentary. I know that God is sovereign and that nothing that I do will determine whether it is His will for me to get into pharmacy school. In submission, I have given this up to God and don't really worry about the grades anymore. Grades are secondary. If I were to get A's and cursed God in the process, it wouldn't be worth it. Even though my grades aren't so hot, God is using this situation to mold me in the man that He wants me to become. I wouldn't have it any other way.

Praise the Lord for He is good! His love endures forever.