Just got back from my 7:30 organic chemistry lab. I have to say, I'm pretty exhausted for some unexplained reason. I have gotten ample sleep every night since I got back to Purdue yet I still feel drained. When I got back to my dorm, I opened up my Bible to something that I bookmarked over a week ago. It could not have come at a more opportune time.

2 Corinthians 12:7-10
"To keep me from becoming conceited because of these surpassingly great revelations, there was given me a thorn in my flesh, a messenger of Satan, to torment me. Three times I pleaded with the Lord to take it away from me. But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weakness, so that Christ's power may rest on me. that is why, for Christ's sake, I delight in my weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong."

What I find interesting about all of this is Paul's resume. Despite the "torn in [his] flesh", Paul's heart posture was one of complete surrender even though God did not answer his prayer. In Paul's weakness and humility, God used Paul for great things. When everything was said and done, Paul realized that none of this was by his own strength but solely by the grace of God and thus gave all the glory to God.

I came into this school with an attitude. Everyone warned me that the second year of pre-pharmacy would be tough yet I still thought to myself "I'm a straight A student. I got this." With each passing day, I am becoming increasingly more aware of how false that statement is. Through it all, God has been humbling me with this exhaustion. I'm not going to make it out of this semester with a "Man, I got this!" attitude but by relying on God's strength to lead me through it. I'm not as great or as awesome of a student as I thought I was a little over a week ago. It's only by God's grace that I have a sharp mind and am able to learn things as quickly as I do. I need to continually remind myself that my talent's are from God and that He is the only that deserves all the glory.