Somewhere along the road, my desire to glorify God by being a good steward of my academic opportunities turned sour. The desire shifted from God's glory to obsessing about grades. The scary part is that it all looked the same from the outside - studying my butt off to do well. On the inside, my motives and attitude were all wrong.

Part of me wonders if the quest for that all-elusive 4.0 GPA is even worth it. In the past when I've obtained it, it's come at the expense of my relationships with friends and was achievable by a single mindedness of doing well. If I do well but don't glorify God, have I really done well or have I done well in the things that don't matter and failed in the things that do?

It's time to take a step back and look at holistic picture of it all. This world tells you how to measure yourself. You're successful if you get good grades, get a good job, and make enough money to life a comfortable and affluent life. There is only one thing that matters in this life. Society tells you that its okay to burn your bridges to get ahead. The introvert inside my desires to be liked by all even if that means taking a backseat to what I really believe or think. There is only one opinion that matters. This world tells you that you're weak if you can't control your own fate and that anything is possible if you work hard enough. There is only one entity that controls all things. What God desires and what the world desires are contrary.

A line has been drawn and there is no middle ground.